I write to remember...

best link on the entire internet, hands down

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 22:08:16 GMT

deadspin.com/5324764/a-comprehensive-ranking-of-the-products-inside-a-good-humor-truck

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 19:44:21 GMT

i ordered my dress on saturday after meeting with the designer. holy shit.

last weeks turtle rescue/birthday

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 15:03:20 GMT

saturday we're going to the deer park outlets and on the way nick says "hey is that guy stopped in front of a turtle?" vickie is going to school to be a zoo keeper so of course she yells "turn around lets see". so i turn around, and we park and get out to see what this group of people are looking at. then we see this huge turtle just sitting on the street, dry as can be just laying there. we call the animal hospital, because of course vickie has it on speed dial, and they tell us we can bring it there. someone from the group thats now formed picks it up by its tail and flings it on the grass, then it starts snapping! Of course everyone in the group is insisting someone do something, but no one wants to put it in their car, of course darling vickievolunteers my car.

nickand another guy go up to the building we're out side of as we're near the industrial park more than the outlets, and they tell the woman who is talking on her phone in a security shirt that they need to take the bucket thats filled with sand and cigg butts to use for the turtle. she barely speaks english and just goes ok ok. so we get the huge turtle in the now empty rinsed out bucket and now Vickie’s holding the bucket sideways using a paper box lid to keep the turtle in. We situate her in my car and just as we're leaving the security lady walks up taps on my window and goes "oh, no, give bucket" we explain we need it and that we'll return it, she says no a few more times, then she stares at my license plate and starts dialing. Is she calling the cops? her boss? we have no idea, we dont care.

we drive from the outlets all the way to the animal hospital in commack, only to have the receptionist tell us "we'll check him out if he's ok you can take him back and let him out in the woods" bitch, i'm not taking this thing back! at this point nick says lets just drop and ditch the turtle, but vickie now wants to know everything she can about it. so we stay and the vet techs take the bucket and let the turtle out. i guess they thought we had like a pet sized turtle? yea, no this thing was huge! they call the guy next door who owns the pet den and he comes in to take a look. turns out it was a 25 lb 25-27 year old male snapping turtle we rescued. one of the techs was going to take him and release him later that night. in the end, i named him Sasper the Sassy Snappin' Turtle.

besides that things are slow, havent done much wedding stuff yet besides the dj which was easy because we're using who dominique used. wednesday i turned 25, so i had the day off and just slept late, got lunch with nick, and relaxed. the night before i saw vickie for my bday beacuse she was supposed to have class wednesday night, she got nick and i killers tickets for my birthday (and his). insane, especially because i was led to believe that nick tried to get them and couldnt. nick got me an adorable umbrella because i need one with all this rain, its white with anchors on it, so friggin cute and a new ipod. we went to the apple store and i'm glad we did, the nano's soo tiny i'd have broken it, so i got an ipod classic thats 120 gbs, which is amazing, and will take me forever to fill. other notable gifts include $$ to finish my leg from my mom and dad and a jewelry box thing from my grandma that instantly made me cry. but now, i've got to get ready to go drop something off at fed ex and then me, nick and vickie are going to PA for a murder mystery dinner, which even if its lame, will still be hilarious, may or may not stay over, still havent decided since its only two hours away. anyway, thats all, will probably work on my recipe/price list for heathers mom on the way up, i need to give her that asap!

2 things

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 16:21:54 GMT

1. i dont think i'll ever understand lost highway, fucking weird.
2. i got my first baking job! lol, i went to heathers yesterday for a party and her mom asked if she could hire me to bake for her fourth of july party!

holy shit

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 19:11:45 GMT

at this very moment, in 13 months, i'll be taking pictures with nick on our wedding day *faints*

i was going to put this behind a cut but i cant remember how to do that

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 00:30:06 GMT

things are fun/crazy/busy as usual. work sucks for both of us, but its only temporary, we've been discussing where we want to move after the wedding, throwing around ideas. wedding stuff is slowly but surely getting done. we have our venue and photographer booked. we met with our videographer last night, she's adorably japanese and we cant wait to work with her. nick's dad is paying for our dj as our engagement gift, which was nice, and we need to get in touch with him soon. asked dominique to forward me matt's info so we can ask him about being our officiant but i guess she's busy. figured out the flowers i want, anemones, they're gorgeous, but not traditional. gonna cost a pretty penny, but so far this whole wedding thing is. have some ideas about my dress, nothing sets in stone tho, i plan on looking in july/august/september and try things on because i'm trying to eat better and exercise and shit like that. have an idea for dresses for the bridal party, again, just need to go shopping. nick has no idea what he wants to wear, whether its a suit or a tux. i personally hate tuxes but its his day too and he can wear whatever he wants. found our invitations on etsy, they're great but not everyone likes them, oh well, we do.

i have a countdown clock at home and one at work because i ended up with two, and everyday i'm reminded of how close the wedding really is. it felt like it was yesterday when we were two years away, now we're less than 14 months; thats insane. been trying to work on our guest list, thats also insane. we only wanted 180, we're up to a few over 200. we have too many friends i guess, lol, plus giving them all a plus guest, adds up. i just hope we dont have to give people plus guest but with restrictions (cant bring this one or that one) as terrible as this sounds, i kinda hope some family cant make it. extended of course, but thats how the number got so high, because if you invite this one, you have to invite him him and him, it gets out of control. i need to get a list together of things i still need to do. still need to meet and discuss shit with the florist, block hotel rooms, figure out linens and chair stuff, all the loose ends need to be tied and then it'll be time to finalize everything. its so crazy how quickly it all seems to happen, but nicks great and always willing to help.

anyway, now its time to watch tv with nick and go to bed early, i'm finally able to work some overtime again so i'm raping that for all its worth.

i'm walking on sunshine

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 22:12:36 GMT

future mrs bua

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 22:48:43 GMT

lots of shits going on, been doing a lot of thinking regarding the wedding and possible changes that seem to need to be changed. its disappointing when the people you thought would be there arent, but i guess people change. the wedding will still be amazing because all that matters is how much we love each other, and thats a lot.

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 22:31:12 GMT

rip top left wisdom tooth

Sat, 15 Nov 2008 16:53:42 GMT

so as usual i havent posted in here in ages and stuff has been going on. the engagement party went well, despite it being during a hurricane, on the water. everyone got along (thank god) and it was a ton of fun all around. nick and i got our own place in bohemia, we like it, its not too far from our jobs and its ours. been doing some wedding planning. today is officially a year and a half till the actual wedding. fuck, thats scary. its exciting and scary and amazing and wonderful and terrifying. i'm not scared of marrying nick, i'm just scared the day wont live up to what we want for it. but fuck it we'll do our best to make sure it does. we booked our photographer. who knew pictures would be so much money, but we love her so its ok. we went into long island city about two weeks ago in the pouring rain to meet with her in her studio. it was so weird to be sitting on this tiny white couch, listening to what i can only describe as french indie/jazz going through huge books of other peoples weddings talking about our own wedding. so weird, but also pretty awesome. we found someone for video too, and they're fucking amazing. she happens to be friends with our photographer which is good so they wont be fighting which apparently is a real possibility or so i've been told. what else what else, been going to the doctor which is weird because i hate the doctor, but i hate anxiety attacks more. fucking lame. ummm, i dont know what else to really write about. i always think oh i'm gonna write so much i'll write about this this and this and then i sit down to do it and my mind goes blank, fuck it. so i guess thats all i'm gonna write, itll probably be another three months till the next time i post.

**edit: i just remembered i wanted to talk about how my job sucks lately. they cancelled our christmas party, took away all overtime and now no bonuses. granted i dont rely on my overtime or bonus and i wasnt planning on going to the party, its still fucking lame, especially when i work in billing and see the kind of money we get from insurance companies. dumb.

also i want this:

these are the things i wish i could register for

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 03:18:47 GMT

or the things i plan on buying before/after we get an apartment together

Ex Voodoo Knife Holder

Cupcake Cookie Jar

Frenchie...Like a small furry buddha Mug

R2D2 Peppermill

Actual Frenchie wearing an adorable sweater

i can ride my bike with no handle bars, no handle bars

Wed, 14 May 2008 01:49:21 GMT

warning: crazy wedding ramblings
so even tho theres two years before the wedding, i'm driving myself crazy because i want to plan everything like, yesterday. we have a hall which will be the venue for the ceremony as well as the reception. it was the first one i saw online, the first one nick and i went to, and we fell in love with it. its prefect, its everything we could want. i'm currently looking at photographers and the ones i like are either way too much money, dont do albums or arent giving prices for 2010 yet. liweddings is a curse as much as it is a blessing. i'm supposed to have a photographer at the engagement party? what? speaking of, i need to get that guest list together and try to order invitations. who knew invitations could be so expensive, i also lost the direction cards capt bills gave us, i dont know where tho. its so easy to see how planning all this could get so out of hand money wise, yes i want custom cocktail napkins and yes i want those gorgeous chair covers. are said chair covers worth the 500 theyd cost to rent for the day? not really, but i do like them. if one more person asks me about a wedding dress, i'm going to stab them. i have no desire to even look at dresses, tho i've already got dresses for the girls picked out. still not sure whats going on as far as a bridal party, ideally i'd like to have that figured out by the engagement party, but who knows. because we booked the hall, we have an official date. may 15, 2010. i'm getting married may 15, 2010. holy shit, i'm getting married. yes, i've been engaged since january of this year, but its still weird to say it, i'm getting married. its crazy to think i'm going to be the first of my friends (besides angie who is getting married in november 09 last i heard) to get married. i never thought i would ever get married, especially this young. i'll be 25 when i get married, thats insane, but also perfect. then we can look for a house, enjoy being married for a bit and then start a family. one of the craziest parts of all of this is i'm not scared to do any of this with nick. its insane to think that just three years ago, i was miserable, hanging out with random jerks going nowhere in life. three years later, i'm in a wonderful relationship with the man i'm going to marry and start a family with, i've got a pretty good job that i've been promoted at in just six months, and i've got my shit together. its like i'm not even the same person.

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 17:40:57 GMT

i havent posted in this in forever, but i keep meaning to. work is dumb, i keep getting new people that either never show up or leave after a week. i'm going to try my best to not work 10 hours of overtime every week, i cant take it, its not healthy to be stuck in that place for that long, especially going in on saturdays which is not in my job requirements. we're trying to plan an engagement party but havent had time to go look since both debbie and my parents are busy. i wish i could just take off the next two years and just spend all my time planning the most amazing wedding possible. i know nick and everyone will help me plan, but i just know if i had more free time to look things up and research and compare itd be all that much better. in a perfect world, i'd win the lottery and nick and i wouldnt have to work and we could just travel and plan this wedding non stop. if only it were a prefect world.

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 20:54:04 GMT

suck it

still cant believe it...

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 18:57:43 GMT

i'm engaged. nick proposed after midnight new years eve/day as we watched the fireworks on the strip. he told me how much he loved me, and i cried and shook and screamed. my ring is absolutely gorgeous, its everything i could possibly want. i've never been this happy with someone in all my life, nick has made me the luckiest girl in the world, as cliche as that sounds. 2008 rang in in the best way possible. happy new year.

a list of things i hate

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 01:30:48 GMT

i havent posted in my journal in like, forever, so i'm making a list of things i hate. i could give a shit.

petty girl drama at work, its not high school anymore, assholes
computers that dont work
people who "pull a J" *april will know what this means
asshole neighbors who back up into your parked car at night and fuck up your back quarter panel and bumper
getting a "raise" thats less than a fucking dollar, whats the point?
getting up early just to go to a place where all you do is hear people bitch, if they bother talking to you
being on the phone for an hour talking to your boss when you get home from work because you cant talk to them at work for fear of your manager crying about it
people who live in the past and just cry about everything and anything, boo fuckin hoo
people who try to be other people because they're pathetic and are too afraid of being themselves
having your tire blow out three blocks from your house, still not cool
stupid people who dont know how to pay their goddamn medical bills
stupid insurance companies who deny claims because they put an S in an id number instead of a 5
getting forced to go to meetings that dont apply to you when you've got a ton of work that just keeps piling up
only getting half an hour lunch break when it takes you ten minutes to drive back to your house, each way
annoying people who cant drive
annoying people in general
lots of other things, but i cant think of them right now.

Tue, 15 May 2007 01:34:59 GMT

if everything in my life is changing for the better, than why arent i?

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 12:07:07 GMT

i leave for work in ten minutes, and i'm not even dressed. i feel like crap today, i've been sick all morning and my stomach pretty much hates me. i want it to be easter already. not because i like easter, its my least favorite holiday, but because i'm taking off two days and we're going to maryland. three-four days away from my house? fuck yes.

i need...

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 03:25:18 GMT

this job to become permanent, and pay well
this job also better offer benefits, because i think a therapist wouldnt hurt at this point
to go back to the eye doctor
new glasses, and even rx sunglasses, that way i dont kill us driving to ohio
to save a ton of money so nick and i can finally get a place
to try and figure out why i've been getting so depressed and anxious all the time, seemingly out of nowhere
to start to focus on enjoying life overall instead of focusing on loathing certain details
to quit my goddamn bitching, obviously no one cares.

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 23:37:06 GMT

anyone else see a problem with this picture??

answer: it's not even remotely funny, in any way.

i've been planning on writting in this for days now, but anytime i try to it fucks up in some way, so hopefully one day this week there will be a real post, with pictures and everything.

interviews

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 16:28:14 GMT

i feel like going on an interview is like going on a really shitty blind date. you get nervous, and your mouth gets dry, but when it comes down to it you really dont want to be there. you have to make idle chit chat and answer stupid questions and try and impress the other person, only to be let down by that person when they dont impress you. then you end it awkwardly with "i'll give you a call", and you either know you're going to get a call and you're dreading it, or you're dreading the fact that you know you're not going to get a call back. with that being said, i've got half an hour to kill before my next interview.

i write the worst journal entries ever

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 19:23:28 GMT

I'm sick of feeling so depressed and feeling as if I have no control over anything. Its like I woke up one day and all of a sudden I was supposed to be an adult. I'm so goddamn scared of making the wrong decision or the wrong choice that I get myself literally sick over things. I feel like such a disappointment.

i think theres something in the water.

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 23:58:36 GMT

everytime i go online or answer the phone, someone else is either pregnant or engaged. seriously, wtf? i dont get why everyone wants to "grow up" so fast. getting married or having a kid doesnt make you more mature, but i think most people believe that it does. dont get my wrong, certain people i'm extremely happy for and i wish them all the best, but i know others are doing it for the wrong reasons.

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 21:03:20 GMT

so it seems a lot more people like death cab than i thought, because nearly everyone is putting the same line somewhere today. well, i'm not going to. i'm making this short and sweet. my new years eve was great, i was in my pjs watching ace of cakes and dog the bounty hunter all night with nick. we woke up late and are going to have dinner with my parents, followed by coldstone tonite. this year is going to be very different. i'm finally ready to do what has to be done. last nite i took my snakebites out, i'm going to get a real job asap. then we're going to find a place, and it'll be amazing, it'll be ours. i cant wait <3

i took this from joelle...

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 17:41:13 GMT

2006:
1. go to a party?: i think so
2. try something new?: sure
3. have someone change your life?: yes
4. kiss someone?: everyday
5. tell your family and friends you love them?: yes
6. buy something extravagant?: i paid for nicks other two angels and the rest of my feet
7. do something nice for you?: i guess
8. do something terribly wrong?: i wouldnt say terribly wrong, thats kind of extreme
9. move?: i helped nick move, that was enough for me
10. go to a concert?: not as many as i used to, but a handful

best of the year:
1. party: my pirate graduation party, nicole and mike's wedding in vegas
2. show: probably a tsunamis show because thats what i went to most this year
3. cd: fear everything or the evergreen terrace covers cd(i dont think it came out this year, but i got it for my birthday this year, and i love it)
4. movie: did i see dave chappelle's block party this year? lol
5. song: the ones i make up, al the time
6. experience: my feetsies getting tattooed, well worth the pain
7. concert: umm, refer to #2, thanks
8. book: i havent read a book for fun in a while, even tho i buy books all the time
9. month: its hard to say, everything good this year was followed by something terrible for me
10. day: august 5?

worst of the year:
1. party: the dinner thing after my grandpa's funeral
2. show: i dont think i saw any bad shows this year, luckily
3. cd: i dont buy cds anymore, i download songs, duh
4. movie: did i see dave chappelle's block party this year? lol
5. song:panic at the disco, whatever it is they sing
6. experience: may-july and november, not going to my college graduation ceremony because my grandfather was dying
7. concert: ?
8. book: no idea
9. month: may-july and november
10. Day: april 30th

hopes for 2007:
1. predict something that you think will happen in 2007?: i'll get a decent job
2. what do you hope changes about your country?: too many things to list
3. what do you hope for yourself?: i hope i will stay happy and be loved and that i will have a kick ass 21st birthday (same as joelle, and i too will turn 23)
4. what do you hope for your family?: everyone will be healthy, happy and quit scaring the crap out of me with "close calls"
5. what do you hope for your best friend?: that she finds a nice boy and that she stays as amazing as she is (which of course will happen, she's been that way since i met her) and that she finds a winning lotto ticket on the ground

during 2006:
1. where were you when it began?: nick's old house on lexington
2. did you stay up?: yea
3. what was your new year wish?: to be happy
4. how many boyfriends?: one
5. broke up?: nope
6. have any crushes?: i date my crush, duh
7. care to mention names?: nick bua (at first i typed nick punishment lol)
8. new friends?: a ton
9. had to say goodbye?: sadly yes
10. missed anyone?: yes
11. win anything?: 400 playing bingo in vegas!
12. best place you went to?: upstate, las vegas, florida wasnt bad either
13. worst place you went to?: new jersey
14. happiest moment?: i had a few amazing moments which i'm keeping to myself
15. how was your birthday?: not too bad
16. best present?: my tattoos

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before? a bunch of things

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i didnt make any this year, but i will next year

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? no

4. Did anyone close to you die? my grandpa

5. What countries did you visit? nothing out of the us this year :(

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006? money

7. What days from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? im july 12th, my grandpa passed away. at his funeral my cousin dolores told me i made a scene because i was crying, my family's not good with emotion

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? graduating college

9. What was your biggest failure? no comment

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? not really

11. What was the best thing you bought? tattoos

14. Where did most of your money go? tattoos, vegas

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? tattoos, vegas

16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2006? no idea

17. Did you fall in love in 2006? i was already in love

18. What was your favorite TV program? no clue

19. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? vickie, i wouldnt say i hate christine, she's just not my friend anymore even tho i tried to start communication again

22. What was your greatest musical discovery? the tsunamis

23. What did you want and get? tattoos

24. What did you want and not get? money, a job

25. What was your favorite film of this year? i answered that already

26. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i was 22 and i hung out with nick and some people then everyone went out the following sunday for my birthday

27. What kept you sane? i wasnt sane much, but i'd have to say nick

27. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? that ham on the street guy, cause he looks like nick, lol

28. What political issue stirred you the most? they reinstate the draft, nick and i get to go to england

29. Who did you miss? my grandpa

30. Who was the best new person you met? everyone i met was the best

31. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006: no matter how long you live, life's too short

32. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "i know you'll make it. be strong. i love you"